One of my closest friends gave a Mother’s Day writing challenge in which I was too late to submit. I think one of the reasons I was hesitant is because my innitial thoughts on Mother’s Day may seem gloomy to the reader and writing is not one of my strengths… But I have changed my mind and here it is:
You Are Amazing...
I’ve been told several times “I don’t know how you do it”, “You are such a great mom”, “I could never do what you do”, “You are amazing!” Not that I am complaining, in fact there have been times a comment like that was just what I needed. And if you are reading this and you don’t know what I am talking about just come to a ward function, dinner at a restaurant, the grocery store or something like that with my family and you will understand. I’m not really amazing; I’m just a normal person trying to get by, just like you. Sometimes I just have to run after that kid who likes to turn the lights off during Sacrament meeting. -or- tries to pull off all his clothes in public. -or- hits and kicks strangers while standing in line -or- screams his favorite song “I am a pizza” while riding bikes in the beautiful park. At least we get lots of good laughs! But hey don't stop saying those things to me. It is always nice to hear them although I only know the real truth! It's like someone telling you that you are beautiful when clearly you know you will never be a supermodel.
Memorable Mother's Days:
As I thought of past Mother’s Days I thought of my first Mother’s Day 10 years ago after Keith was born. I think he had just gotten off oxygen but he was still on a heart monitor. We were happy we could finally leave the house because the threat of RSV was over. He was doing well, he was healthy and I’m sure I thought: I can’t believe I am a Mother- I looked to the bright future with hope and love for my child.
Mother’s Day 2001 was extremely painful. This was my first Mother’s Day after Lexi died. (My heart goes out to my sister who just experienced her first Mother’s Day after her daughter passed away- it is so painful, words cannot describe the aching your heart feels) I have a child in heaven and if I am faithful I will be able to raise her. She is guaranteed the Celestial Kingdom; something I know is every Mother’s dream for her child. Although, my dream is to hold her, kiss her and play with her.
Mother's Day 2008: This is my first Mother’s Day that I am a homemaker only. I don’t have a job. The only difference I feel is I have less stress in my life and because of this I am a better Mother. To keep sanity while raising a Special Needs child is difficult, I think I can say I am the most healthy and happy I have ever been as a Mother. I am grateful I am able to focus on my children and give them the attention they need. I do miss working but today I am grateful, and I can see the big picture.
As I thought of past Mother’s Days I thought of my first Mother’s Day 10 years ago after Keith was born. I think he had just gotten off oxygen but he was still on a heart monitor. We were happy we could finally leave the house because the threat of RSV was over. He was doing well, he was healthy and I’m sure I thought: I can’t believe I am a Mother- I looked to the bright future with hope and love for my child.
Mother’s Day 2001 was extremely painful. This was my first Mother’s Day after Lexi died. (My heart goes out to my sister who just experienced her first Mother’s Day after her daughter passed away- it is so painful, words cannot describe the aching your heart feels) I have a child in heaven and if I am faithful I will be able to raise her. She is guaranteed the Celestial Kingdom; something I know is every Mother’s dream for her child. Although, my dream is to hold her, kiss her and play with her.
Mother's Day 2008: This is my first Mother’s Day that I am a homemaker only. I don’t have a job. The only difference I feel is I have less stress in my life and because of this I am a better Mother. To keep sanity while raising a Special Needs child is difficult, I think I can say I am the most healthy and happy I have ever been as a Mother. I am grateful I am able to focus on my children and give them the attention they need. I do miss working but today I am grateful, and I can see the big picture.
4 comments:
I almost called you on Friday night to see if you were going to submit something... but I was worried that if I did, you'd feel pressured to do it (in case you weren't really wanting to.)
Also, girl, you know you would get wiggle room with me and could have submitted late!
Either way, I'm glad you did it. You always have such interesting perspective.
Amber--You can think you are normal all you want, but you truly are AMAZING. I really look up to you.
I totally agree with Lisa---you are an inspiration to all. And the best part---you always have a smile on your face and happy laughter! I
Amber, you are incredibly amazing and the most patient mother I've ever known. Your children were sent to you for a reason. They are so lucky to have you.
We miss your cute family!
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